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An epiphany...

Being surrounded by:

- Friends
- Guide
- Loved ones....
- my bliss :-)

Losing my soul does 'nt matter to me.... If you stay, I don't need heaven!


"How sweet, how passing sweet is solitude."
But grant me still a friend in my retreat,
Whom I may whisper--Solitude is sweet."
- William Cowper

Attraction vs intimidation (An Extension to the previous post)

I was still wondering on all my possibilities to handle this situation, when he said –
“Tell me one thing, do you really like the taste of cough syrup and cough drops so much?”
Now what kind of question was that and where did it come from? - I gave a confusing look to him, since I was still not sure of my voice.
He simply rolled his eyes and said – “Look at yourself”
I followed his words immediately and saw myself. I was thoroughly drenched in the rain, that was now showering heavily on us and then suddenly I started feeling cold to the point that I began to shiver.
It was so foolish at the first place to have a walk in the rain, and so stupid of me, to not even notice getting drenched, when I was with him. Had I lost my senses or what?
My face might have portrayed my sudden comeback to the reality, because I could see his lips smirking at me; I gritted my teeth.
“Let us get back to your place. We anyway have the whole evening to decide that.” He simply turned around and I noticed after som…

Ending of a dream? .. Or the beginning of a nightmare?

"Can we go for a walk please? If you don't mind.." He said, the moment I turned back to go to my room.
My heart skipped a beat for a nanosecond; I still don't know if it was the rage or the shock that made me stop. I turned back to look at him.
I couldn't have believed him saying this to me, if I myself had not turned and watched him speaking the last few words
"Please!" He said; it was so difficult to know anything from his face.
I sighed and nodded.
We started walking slowly and I noticed that it had started drizzling outside.
"Why did you have to lie to me?" I said slowly, not looking at him but could feel that expressionless stare on my face.
"What else do you expect me to do?" he said, prolonging his stare without blinking.
I considered the question and felt more frustrated for not getting any decent answer to it myself.
"Forget it.. So, what do you want now?" I blurted out, unable to keep my composure.
"What are you doing…

Do I dazzle you?

"Perfect." He flashed his gleaming smile, dazing her momentarily.
"Um" — she shook her head, blinking — "your server will be right out." She walked away unsteadily.
"You really shouldn't do that to people," I criticized. "It's hardly fair."
"Do what?"
"Dazzle them like that — she's probably hyperventilating in the kitchen right now."
He seemed confused.
"Oh, come on," I said dubiously. "You have to know the effect you have on people."
He tilted his head to one side, and his eyes were curious. "I dazzle people?"
"You haven't noticed? Do you think everybody gets their way so easily?"
He ignored my questions. "Do I dazzle you?"
"Frequently," I admitted.

Me starting with the shayaris....

Sab kehte hain ishq mein logon ki neend ud jaati hai khwaahish thi koi hum se bhi ishq kare.. humein neend bhaut aati hai kuch toh poori kar di khuda tuney, mere khwaab le kar ab ishq ka bhi aks dikhaa dein....koi sailaab de kar

Meri aankhon ke noor ko dikha aye khuda tu raasta ... kab takk dhoondhengi andhere mein ussko ye rafta rafta.. zaalim duniya bhi toh deti hain itni thokrein... fanaa kar dein sab ko, jo iss ishq se ho jaaye vaasta...

Ek raah

Ek raah - akeli si, anjaani si... Khud hee kadam uss par chal chale Na manzil ka thikaana, na hee kisi or ka ek saath ki ummeed mein aagey badh chale
Miley kitne mujhe iss safar par Iss raah jaise hee anjane se.. Kahin paas, kahin door.. kuch le ke andheron mein noor..
Kabhi rafta rafta mere peeche Kabhi noor se bhi tez itne aagey, Ki ho gaye wo..ankhon se ojhal, aur bass gaye dil mein yaad ban ke..
Jaane kab takk aur jaayeingi ye raahein.. Kahaan hai meri parchaai? Abhi talak dhoondh rahi hain ye Nigaahein!!

My fortune and my nostalgia - FINAL Part

The "Practicals" session so called for me began in no time, when we - a group of thirteen people were directed towards a classroom. We all proceeded inside and the first thing I noticed, was the typical semi-circular arrangement of chairs around the desks (the way I used to visualize while reading GDs sessions in CSR). There was a lady (rather strict looking) seated behind the teacher's desk, just in front of those chairs, looking and observing each of us. We took our positions and I was sitting at the left most seat of the whole arrangement.
I was really having difficulty breathing that time, because of what I dunno. I had no idea what topic was going to be given to us and everyone except me as I thought was looking very confident to me... (It usually happens when u are panicking in such situations.) Anyways! I simply programmed my mind to stay cool, worst that could happen was that I'd not speak anything. Big deal! I can go back and continue my studies - there was n…

Some shaayaris read somewhere...

Inspiring shaayari -
"ज़िन्दगी में हमेशा मुस्कुराते रहो,
हँसना ज़िन्दगी की ज़रूरत है,
ज़िन्दगी जीयो इस अंदाज़ में ,
की तुम्हे देख कर सब कहें -
ज़िन्दगी कितनी ख़ूबसूरत है!"

Confusing Shaayari :P
"आंखों से दूर हो पर दिल से नहीं,
दिल में ज़रूर हो पर मिलते नहीं,
बस यही गिला है तुम से हमें,
तुम मिलते ज़रूर हो - पर दिल से नहीं!"

Some Devdas shayaris:
"खुदा सलामत रखे उनको, जो हम से नफ़रत करते हैं
प्यार ना सही, नफ़रत ही सही,
कुछ तो है जो वो सिर्फ़ हम से करते हैं!"

"ज़रा पूछ मेरे सब्र की इन्तेहान कहाँ तक है,
तू सितम कर ले , तेरी ताकत जहाँ तक है,
वफ़ा की उम्मीद जिन्हें होगी, उन्हें होगी...
हमें तो देखना है, तू बेवफा कहाँ तक है!"

My fortune and some nostalgia - Part II

I proceeded with my studies taking Dual honors course in Mathematics and Computer science. And I certainly don't remember how those another two years passed there. By the time I lifted my head up and saw the horizon, it was already completion of my graduation course, I had done my summer training project and I'd got admission in MCA too at Banasthali Vidyapith, which is supposed to be quite reputed for that. My life was going all well, I had got adjusted to the routine I was following there. The one month passed in MCA course was real fun, with new hostel, new friends, new kinda freedom - the "seniority" and a certain kind of ownership to the place.
I remember when I was pursuing my last year of graduation, one morning while browsing through all dozens of newspapers as my daily morning routine, I read about this advertisement that covered one half part of a sheet: "WASE" - Wipro academy of software excellence. It was a collaborative program of Wipro Technolo…

My today's fortune and some nostalgia - Part I

My Today's fortune says it is time to do something new. Well lets see what new can I do today.. Here I am sitting in my office, sipping coffee, checking my morning mails, making calls about the problems that might have been encountered during night, fixing them. All being usual stuffs. With this kind of routine, all new I can do as of now is to design a different approach to a few technical problems in software for the work we are doing here. That too can not be said as new, because what we are doing here is re-using the techniques and tools for the solutions. In other layman terms that is just a copy-paste. I may or may not do that, which does not make any difference, except that I'd be done with one more work item and happily go home, contented with my day's job, contented that there are no overheads anywhere, that my bosses and clients are happy with everything smoothly going on. And then I ask myself, did I work so hard right since my school days - that had been around 20 y…

How to fall out of love?


Are you the victim of cruel fate? Does the "perfect" mate think you are better off as friends? Although it might feel like you'll never find somebody better, there are some ways you can move on. Falling out of love is as unique to each individual as falling in love, but here are some healthy ways to cut your emotional ties.


1. Make a list of all the reasons it wasn't meant to be.

*The number one reason should be that you are worth someone who loves you and who thinks you are awesome. It's always flattering to have an admirer, but you deserve better than to just be somebody's ego boost. Other reasons may include incompatibility, especially when you imagine yourself spending the rest of your life with this person and remember the ways in which you clash on a regular basis. Human memory can be selective, and you may find yourself dwelling on that first kiss in the park, or that time when you laughed till you almost cried..…

As a farmer …

One Sunday the new priest of a small town church saw that only one farmer from a nearby village had turned up for the mass. He was disappointed, for he had expected a good audience and had prepared a talk accordingly. Now he was reluctant to deliver such a precious talk to a mere farmer. “I see, you are the only listener. Should I go on with me talk? What do you say?” asked the priest. “Well, Father, as a farmer I can tell you that if I go to my cattle-shed with a lot of fodder but find only one cow there, I feed it, nevertheless!” said the farmer. That helped the priest to make up his mind. He went on with his long lecture. At last when he finished and looked at the farmer, he did not find the farmer too pleased. “How do you like my discourse?” he asked “Well, Father, as a farmer I can tell you that if I go to my cattle-shed with a lot of fodder and find only one cow, I do not compel the single cow to eat the whole lot!” replied the farmer as he went out.

A Folktale from Finland - "The Lost bride"

Once upon a time there lived a brother and a sister named Osmo and Ilona. They had no other kin in the world and were very poor. Though they worked very hard they could hardly manage to make both ends meet. Osmo decided to go out and try his fortune. His sister stayed at home. He soon reached a beautiful city and took work there as a shepherd. The king’s son who was fond of making friends with strangers got to know him and often came out to talk to him as he guarded the sheep. One day they fell to talking idly in the course of which Osmo declared that he had never seen anyone prettier than his own sister. She was also talented and the most kind hearted girl in the world! He described her virtues so warmly that the prince felt a great urge to see her. ‘Will you marry her, if I bring her here?’ asked Osmo ‘I promise, I will,’ replied the prince, ‘but if you fail to bring her, you will be punished.’ Osmo returned home and told his sister all about the prince. She felt very happy at the pros…

Lover's moon

I look at the night sky And I feel you are near You linger beside my love in moon rising and I dare.... To listen to my heart and desires that are there In the silence and shadows feel you near in love.... I gaze to the full moon rising as gently you appear... Then sink, into the depths of loving eyes then I hold you so close... And the magic of dreamer's touch is alive now to feel.... Your love in one breathless kiss i'm alive.... One night to meet in the shore of one true love... Is more than my heart could ever dream I'm in love.... Strength of the vortex drags me down to the ground... But I am saved once again once again touched by tour love.... Spiraling in our love now we cling to our time... And the moment that was yours and mine still shines... One night to meet on the shores of one true love... Is more than my heart could ever dream...I'm in love, I'm alive... And my heart cries out please Please still let the dreamer dream?... But I'm alone once again in the dawn sun rises... And the moo…