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A small book

Hello people,
Just now got done with the first mini-ebook of my own - "A simple life of miracles". Its just an 11 page ebook, stating some of my experiences, ideas, thoughts and analogies. Two of the experiences mentioned in the book have already been enlisted here in my blog.The book does not hold all of the magnificent experiences I've had till now. It just describes a few and gives a general idea.
Click here to download the book
I hope you enjoy it. Consider it as my new year gift to you. Have a wonderful, prosperous and magical year 2010 ahead.
Blessings to all, Kimi

My past life diagnosis

I was just browsing through the channels on TV (for a change), not knowing what to see and I landed on this program - "Raaz pichle janam ka" being aired on NDTV imagine. I don't know how much authentic or fake the show is.
But it sure did intrigue me to this unknown realm of our journey. I have no particular notions or beliefs about rebirth and all. Still, out of curiosity I played a junk game that gives past life analysis (obviously this one was fake for sure!) and I got this:
"Your past life diagnosis: I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Sumatra around the year 1675. Your profession was that of a seaman, cook or carpenter.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
As a natural talent in psychology, you knew how to use your opportunities. Cold-blooded and calm in any situation.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnatio…

My earliest manifestation as I remember

Since I have so much free time today, sitting at my home , doing nothing except for reading a book “Spiritual Marketing” by Joe Vitale and just relaxing with the beautiful music in the background, I thought I can as well enrich my this beautiful blog with my earliest memory of manifesting my desires. So here it goes:

"Ever wondered from where does the story – “Alladin and his magic lamp” got generated? Ever wondered why kids have a knack to attain almost everything to themselves whenever they want, no matter the thing is available at that moment to them or not.

I’d like to share a very interesting experience of my own in this regard.

I was just five year old when I got a very weird fascination to the piano keys and its music. I absolutely adored the way piano is being played and the music that would come from it just used to touch my soul. I first saw the piano at my school and it totally drew my attention towards it. That time I didn’t even know what the instrument was called.

I wa…

Thoughts and life...

Power of thoughts: After giving much thought to this topic and its implementations in my life, I finally decided to start expressing my ideas here with a real live example from my life.
I’ll just start with the recent last one that I can remember vividly.
“January 2009 – I’d come back from New York, back to India, not in a good state of mind, thoroughly exhausted with the kind of work I’d been doing since past 5 years. It was same, it was stagnant, I hated the work culture- I was being in and I had no friends. I saw no aim in my life, the work was getting over my nerves and I desperately wanted to quit my job, go back home for a few months or so just to relax. Later on I thought I’d join some elementary school there in my hometown and become a teacher. But obviously it was a much forbidden dream for me to make true especially in the times of recession, with my employer’s bond of Rs.4,20,000 to serve for another 6 months and that too when my parents were searching for a decent groom for …

Trying my hands on internet marketing.. :D

I know no one is gonna buy this book, but still at least for my sake click on the link and see the stuff there. It might prove to be helpful to someone.... (Who knows!)
So here goes my first ad post. (For trial!)
"Turn Your Life Around in Less Than A Week"
How many people do you know who can honestly say they are living their dreams?
Are you?

How Many Times Have you wondered When The Real Change Is Going To Happen in Your Life?

Click here to find the greatest, mystifying and most bewildering secrets completely unrevealed to most of the humankind.....
(P.S.: Please post your comments no matter you read it or not. This whole activity is purely for fun... :-) I'd really appreciate it a lot.)

Patthar sulag rahe they

After much long time I'd been listening to one of my fav gazalz ..."Patthar sulag rahe they"
...Some of my all time fav lines from it-:

Patton ke tootne ki sadaa ghut ke reh gayi
jungle mein door door takk hawaa ka pataa na tha

parchaaiyon ke sheher ki tanhaaiyaan na pooch
apna shareek-e-gham koi apne siwa na tha

Love as I see....

Love - a hail; a vitreous silica, purity intense; firm like a stone, too soon it melts; and then its gone.. Love - an ice berg; magnificent in itself, hiding more; exhibiting less, floats in its serenity; for the eternity.... Love - a storm; shatters the dreams though pleases the one, who takes the blaze.. A need above all, that needs nothing at all, except for the lover's face, to live, to survive, to breathe, to smile and then to go above this life's maze... One crosses the purgatory here, whats left now to purify? Love - a heaven , it doesn't matter whether you live or die..

A weirdo vs an Angel

A Weirdo: Do u think if i drink beer I'll feel better? An Angel......: Nope A Weirdo: ok! just a wild guess An Angel......: Not at all!!!! A Weirdo: I've seen it in movies An Angel......: Now this is too much!!! A Weirdo: When people get depressed, they start drinking; i thought they feel betterI know I'll die if i have beer with some sedative I saw that too on TV....right? An Angel......: hmmmmmmmm A Weirdo: some air hostess died that way An Angel......: and... A Weirdo: few years back in mumbai An Angel......: coke and menthol A Weirdo: to have poison? when death can be so easy and tastyand without pain! An Angel......: you are thinkng to have drinks?? A Weirdo: No! Just got a random thought and got curious so asked you An Angel......: bad!!! A Weirdo: I've already had 4 large mugs of black cofee since morning - all bitter Just now added half teaspoon sugar in one...and its tasting tooo much sweet to me now An Angel......: Don't ever try th…

Re: Heart – Dead and Beating at the same time?

I never thought I could get a more than a practical answer to this question of mine so soon. Life can be stranger than the ideas we get, and certainly weirder than this blog of mine.
All my hypothesis, experiences, conclusions about myself have been somehow tied around …handcuffed and asked to stand guiltily, heads down…at a corner for the first time; broken with smashes … while the miracle of life welcomes me with open arms…even though its like a short lived fairy tale dream of mine…
The first culprit, guilty of all charges:
“I don’t feel anything…Not in people’s world”
“I don’t feel anything…Not in people’s world” – except for the ones right for me…how could anyone know, when and where can you find them? Life sometimes just sends them to you as surprise gifts. Second culprit:
“But where is the affinity? Why can’t someone’s voice make me feel that? - Or Someone’s song? - Or Someone’s talks? - Or Someone’s company for my walk? (Makes me rather uncomfortable!) - Or my friends besides me…

I Am Sorry!

..And I really mean it...
Just "three" words,
Can't change what I said unwillingly,
I can only try to heal,
Deep from my soul,
I meant no harm.
Deep from my heart
that conveys an apology...
It hurts like hell,
to hurt those who love me,
I pray for the best of all,
even if you don't believe me,
I still burn....Please forgive me!!

The Phenomenon

The nature dazzles me with its wonders every time I look at it. No matter where I am; what am I doing?
Somehow it has now felt my addiction towards it and may be now showering its love back to me in all these mini wonderful sights it shows to me.
This was another of the most magnificent gifts it has shown me till now.
I was leaving Bangalore on April 18th, 2009. Everything was going fine. I boarded my flight at 6:25 PM. It took off at 7 PM sharp.
The perfect twilight lied outside; though nothing was visible about the sky since it was all covered with dark clouds; supposed to be full of rain and thunder.
The plane took off and glided past the clouds; above them. The view from my window here took my breath away for a moment. The horizon with its orange-blue color canvas along with the perfectly dark clouds laid there in the vastness; and then there was this huge wonder of the wonders; just lying between the indefiniteness of the dark stretch, ending in the drowning sunlight.
I blinked and sa…

Heart: Dead and beating at the same time?

Vacuum; a hole or many; and then the very thing – going into pieces.
The breath and the beat; all enough to keep it assembled: physically.
Wonder what happened; emotionally? how to decide that?
The fact that: I don’t feel anything?

But I do feel…

Not in a people’s world though. Sounds weird!! I know… to me too.

- Instrumental Music
- Books
- Endless walks in the woods and breeze.
- Staring at the moon and the stars in night sky.
- Watching the sea waves splashing my feet.
- Lying on the cold slide in the park; temperature - some -20 degree Celsius; eyes closed; music in ears; full volume.
- Playing piano.
- Writing.
- Reading.
- Dreaming.
- Mirror.
- Voice.

But where is the affinity?

Why can’t someone’s voice make me feel that?
- Or Someone’s song?
- Or Someone’s talks?
- Or Someone’s company for my walk? (Makes me rather uncomfortable!)
- Or my friends besides me while I look at the stars and moon… why I yearn to be alone then?
- Or a friend holding my hand to just play around wit…


What is?
The state of those who die in God’s friendship, assured of their eternal salvation, but who still have need of purification to enter into the happiness of heaven.
Can it lie on this mortal earth?
Who knows?
It feels as if one never was born despite a great master mirage making everyone believe it, but he has been serving this state of purgatory only since the times of his consciousness.

And how can the purification be done?.. I wonder!!


Its been months since the tuberose spread its fragrance nearby..
Its been months since she slept peacefully at night..
She fascinated the dark,and dreaded the days She called for someone, and saw no trace..
"Where to go?" she asked herself, and to her embarrassment, she asked this to everyone else..
Her own seemed to be ditching her, Can there be any escape?
They got confused at this strange question, "Can't you see the landscapes?" "You know your home, its always there for you" - they said, She blinked at them, trying to get some sense of that
"Can anyone let me go back to my sleep?" - she asked, They stared at her, doubting some insanity hidden and masked
"A sleep is what I desire, the long pending one, Where the dreams I see, feel more real than this blazing sun"
No one answered, all she got was silence, She went to the terrace and saw the sky, Her best friends didn't seem, to be there, the moon and the stars to bid her good bye..
"Wish me…

Can I?..... I can!

What can a person do after going through a regular monotony of things he never thought he would do, but somehow because of some unknown reasons – had been doing them since so long, that they have actually become his life?

What would happen if he just snaps off from those things, without knowing what would be the outcome? Where would he go? Would he be able to do anything else that would give him pleasure and prosperity? What if in the due course of time he had actually forgotten what he really wanted to have and now even if he wants to do that – the time can’t be reversed?

These thoughts had been going into my mind since God-knows-when, but yes somehow unconsciously they were there, roaming around, browsing through my brain, wandering like an unwanted beetle, alone, different, somehow nasty from the rest of the crowd of thoughts.

Yesterday, before going to sleep, I closed my eyes, asked the divine (God, subconscious, higher self or any other nomenclature you want to give? – Please feel f…

Random..(Just to begin with, after so long break!! )

It has already been two months now, since I'd left New York. Can't believe its the same time I wrote my last post here.

Time has been on a crunch state after coming back to India, with loads of things to bother about, that has included me searching for a decent project (have got one to just pass around with; for a few months of bond period I have), cooking (loads and loads of!!...phew) and washing clothes on a daily basis!! : (I hate it!).

And its been months since i'd gone for a long walk in the woods; with music blaring in my ears, gentle tickling breeze blowing around my hair - (How much I miss those walks now! :( )
Anyways, life goes on and at present I've found my solace with the stars and the moon. It is a bliss to spend hours at night just staring at the stars (not much you can see in the city of Bangalore though!) and the sky (which is much neonish than the pitch darkness it is supposed to have).

I wonder sometimes how much mystery does the space outside and inside…