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Can I?..... I can!

What can a person do after going through a regular monotony of things he never thought he would do, but somehow because of some unknown reasons – had been doing them since so long, that they have actually become his life?

What would happen if he just snaps off from those things, without knowing what would be the outcome? Where would he go? Would he be able to do anything else that would give him pleasure and prosperity? What if in the due course of time he had actually forgotten what he really wanted to have and now even if he wants to do that – the time can’t be reversed?

These thoughts had been going into my mind since God-knows-when, but yes somehow unconsciously they were there, roaming around, browsing through my brain, wandering like an unwanted beetle, alone, different, somehow nasty from the rest of the crowd of thoughts.

Yesterday, before going to sleep, I closed my eyes, asked the divine (God, subconscious, higher self or any other nomenclature you want to give? – Please feel free!! :-)) what if I resign from my current job tomorrow? I had just two options in front of me:

1) What would I do if I resign from my current job?
2) What would I do if I don’t resign from my current job?

The answer to the second question was much easier and - painful. If there is some sort of name that can be given to the ailment – “Irritation-beyond-tolerance-because-of-the-software-jargons-and-coding-scenes”, then I might be having that to an extreme level, which can reach and pass the need of appropriate medication and surgery if there is any.

And the irony is that I am a software engineer since past more than five years , now gone to a higher version so that I can be called a “Module Leader” having a “Red Tag”(a mark of five years seniority) in my company which is even funnier since right now there is no module for me to lead.

And after around 2 years of leaving the rigorous coding areas, I am forced to do that now, which is similar to hurting me with 1000 nails piercing again and again, daily.

The only subconscious and outward reasoning for this torture -

i) What comes from my bosses and dad:

– “Recession time - If you quit, you’d not get any job”.
– “Don’t demand so much about your roles and work, we are lucky enough to get work for our people, so better do what is given to you.”
– “Be happy that at least you are getting full salary in these crunch times.”

ii) What comes from my mom is:
- “We won’t get a decent groom for you if you quit now.”

iii) What comes from me is:
- “Do I have a life of my own? “

Now coming to the first question – “What would I do if I resign today?”

The first reaction that came – “Blank”.

I had no idea what to do leaving aside softwares and coding, having being groomed to this very field since so long now.

After two minutes, images could come out of the clouds. I could see myself working here for another 2 months, during which I’d plan to change the course of my job, to teaching or may be quality assurance.
Worst scenario I’ll go home, take a break for sometime, stay at home, relax, play music on my favorite piano, join VLCC and lose some weight!! ;), give tuitions to kids etc etc.

And my mind went calm. I have the degree, I have the experience, I have the brains, I have some savings and I have H1 Visa too lol !! ;). It wouldn’t be too bad than what is it now!

And I can trust!! :). So here I leave!

Random..(Just to begin with, after so long break!! )

It has already been two months now, since I'd left New York. Can't believe its the same time I wrote my last post here.

Time has been on a crunch state after coming back to India, with loads of things to bother about, that has included me searching for a decent project (have got one to just pass around with; for a few months of bond period I have), cooking (loads and loads of!!...phew) and washing clothes on a daily basis!! : (I hate it!).

And its been months since i'd gone for a long walk in the woods; with music blaring in my ears, gentle tickling breeze blowing around my hair - (How much I miss those walks now! :( )
Anyways, life goes on and at present I've found my solace with the stars and the moon. It is a bliss to spend hours at night just staring at the stars (not much you can see in the city of Bangalore though!) and the sky (which is much neonish than the pitch darkness it is supposed to have).

I wonder sometimes how much mystery does the space outside and inside us can hold? I mean, look at the stars; millions and billions of them, even more. Some might have perished on the way while sending their light to us; so may be we are watching the stars that existed some thousands of years ago. Can I say it to be a kind of time travel?
Anyways, just my wonders in my head; there are loads of things to ponder about.

Last weekend I went to Coorg with a couple of my friends and their team mates. Overall a nice experience; change - atleast for me since I was away from the pollution and dust for some golden period of time; and I could even breathe easily (without sneezing or coughing after every 5th breath :( ). It felt bad to see such a beautiful place in so much dirt and negligence. Ok! Let me not go into that depressing talk. And I am not going into the details of the whole trip; it was tiring, experiencing it once only; so just a summary :P

The journey was pleasant and the weather was just perfect and everything else too like -
the big, spacious and amazing farmhouse we'd booked; the dense forests and their greenry; the water falls (we couldn't go in and had a big mood-drop); the origin of kavery; the campfire(almost a flop show since all went to sleep after just two hours of sitting there and a dare game!); the spicy food; the unexpected trip to another waterfall (where we could go in "yippeee"...), its dirty and cold water; the big snake we found there on the rocks from the jungle, which almost attacked a guy (I never knew snakes can rise so high above the ground :O ); our fleeing away from the place; the Dumb-C and Antakshari games in our bus and finally a climax with a visit to Mysore Brindawan garden.

But the most spectacular thing for me happened early morning on the last day of my trip, while sitting at the courtyard of the farmhouse, having my morning coffee, staring at the clean sky and the fading moon, inhaling as much fresh air as i can. (If possible I could have just stored it somewhere and taken along with me to bangalore!! : ) ) and then a shining bright blue ball of light, just zoomed around from somewhere in the sky and then, it vanished; just in three eye-blinks. I stared at it for a moment, even when it was gone....

Now here I'd like to tell something, since i watch the night sky for 1-2 hours almost daily, it has been a trend that every now and then I get a glimpse of a shooting star... :P (I wish i could take a pic some day!)

But a shooting star in day time? :O...That too of blue color was something I've never heard about. I wish so much now to have caught a pic of that amazing view.

Still, no matter how silly it seems, I made a wish!!:)...as I do every time I see one..

And since this one was somewhat special...so was the wish too!! :D

PS: Don't ask me what I wished for!! :P

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